Wednesday, June 30, 2010


Well, is it on the eyes ? Here in this country (saudi arabia), you can see only the eyes of a girl!

You know what guys here say ? 'its all in the eyes of the girl!'

And you wont believe, most of them say if they can see the eyes of the girl, they can see how beautiful she might be by just looking into her eyes!!

I am not sure whether it is all about eyes..Oh no don't think I have met a girl by seeing her eyes and so I am writing this.. A Big noooo, I haven't dear

It is like, as all poets sing so much about the beauty and depth of eyes!!

Guys who are in love, talks about the eyes. Well not just the guys, girls too talk so much about the eyes..

What would be there deeper inside the eyes ?

See the eyes.. the longing.. the need.. the wanting.. wow!! it is something really interesting to explore..

Is it the looks that the lovers give each other :-)

Well is it that chemistry happens just because of the looks that one give another one?

Is it all about love at first sight ??

Well, is it all about interpretations, feelings, experiences ...

Lovers need to tell an answer for this..

Monday, June 28, 2010

Love & Hate: Moments of Life

Like two sides of a coin there exist the two emotions.

Whether we like it or not, the duality prevails in all relations: the one which overrule matters.

You know, it might be really surprising to know how fast we switch between these two states - the transition between love and hate!

We see lovers loving each other so passionately. They want to be together forever as one. They would want to be floating (it is an elevated state of mind) in the same state forever and ever after - In a peak of excited resonance.

They would want everyone else in this universe to vanish but just them.

State where nothing is impossible! And Everything around is beautiful!

They wish to stop the sun and the moment - the moment of excitement to stand still forever!

The failure of love drives us to hatred !

When we don’t get what we want, we start disliking the other person.

The dislike gradually grows up to a huge fire inside us.

The fire burns all the ‘love’ energy and it gets transformed to ‘hatred’. The fire spreads across all our nerves and then to the brain.

The brain gets excited in the fire and try burning the target - the same person who was filled with love!

Then we want to see the other person in pain and anguish. We want him/her to suffer and get tortured.

By seeing them in torture would become the only motivation for us to live ? (Just be an audience for one divorce session at court! )

The moment:
When love vanishes and hatred starts.. Also the similar moment - when hatred vanishes and love starts.

Just think how volatile it is.

The person whom we hated most, becomes one of our close friends - we starts respecting and liking their nature- the same nature which we hated to the core?

The same happens with our close friends ? - A close friend becoming an enemy?

The person, who loves to spend hours and hours together, starts getting irritated on each moment of togetherness.

The pain, the burning and the restlessness starts affecting us.

The presence of other person which was like levitation to us becomes like frustration!


Does all this happen because of the mood swings?
Is it because of our own reflections on others?
Is it because nothing is permanent?

Is it because change is the nature’s rule?


Is it all because our information or our views or our interpretation is on time axis which by itself changes?

When we get a different view, we act on it?

When we interpret things in a different way, we start seeing things and visualizing things in a right opposite meaning?

It is not just between the people, it is also true among the other materialist things in this world! -We might hate something today and the same thing might become our dearest tomorrow!

Who knows what is it that we really love?
Is there anything called ‘love’ or ‘hate’ which never vanishes ?
Is this all momentary?

PS:Honestly,I am in search of the meaning. I made me experiment on myself. The experiments offered me experience. The experiences blessed me with scars.

The exploration still continues

And so my life..

With or without meaning..

Friday, June 11, 2010

You are no different

Yesterday, I spoke with Rani. She told me something interesting, ‘You are saying the same thing that I have been hearing all the day from different people and you are not talking anything different!

Rani is in her +2 studies and I trust almost everyone is asking her to study. ‘Why is it that everyone are having high expectations on me? I am not capable enough to reach where others are thinking of me. I feel depressed thinking about others expectations on me scoring higher gradesI am just wondering why is academics so important in life? When I was a kid, I never studied well. Don’t worry; I always had day dreams of me scoring high marks!! Lol!

You know what, when I was in 4th standard, I wanted a watch, an electronic one. Finally, parents told me that I will get a watch if I score highest in the class. And you won’t what I did for getting the watch.

I flunked in the Hindi paper and so I hided the paper in the classroom and wrote 25/25 in the name slip in the Bag. Don’t wonder, I had a name slip sticker in my bag in which my name class no, division details were written and since I didn’t want to show the paper home, I wrote the marks myself in the red ink (to prove that it is written by a teacher- only teachers use red ink pens!)

And with lots of joy on scoring 25/25 I reached house to show that I scored full marks in Hindi and it was like see mom, I have even written the marks down in my bag name slip when I got the mark sheet. She said, it is OK that the marks are there on your bag, but where is the answer paper? I told her, mom that it was written by the teacher since I have lost the answer sheet!! Lol!! Don’t laugh too muchhh .. yes yes.. I ..I myself did it!!

I still can’t believe how I did all these!! Anyways I did go through the other side of doing all these mischiefs - you know what I mean :-) Well i went through the correction treatment for doing these kinds of! . And I think in next exam I did score within the top 5 in class (Well, I negotiated for top 5) and I got a new watch :-)

Coming back, I still don’t understand how we can effectively communicate and make the kid realize how important is studies for them.

Teachers are the blessed ones who has a knack to handle the younger generations - the to be future leaders.

Do we really lack the right teachers who are able to excite the curious child in us?

Rani is unable to study not only because of the pressure from our society; it might also be because she is not excited about the subject?

The turning points happen all the time in our life, however if you get into the right place early in life, it might be a smooth journey. As of today marks and exams are the ones which will help you reach a right place in the system- at least it will give you more options.

How will I let Rani know the importance and seriousness about studies and its influence on our life?

I am clueless; she says I am no different from others around her?

How will I make her realize the potential that she can achieve?

Can someone help me here?????

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

One More Year !!

‘The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,

And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep..’

As Robert Frost said, I too have promises to keep. -The promises that I gave to myself – to travel around the world, see the places, meet new people, experience new cultures….Well it is a long list..

Today happens to be my birthday - my first birthday out of our native country!

Though I am in a country where you can’t really party, this is a different experience altogether.

Early morning my colleague Prasad woke me up and said ‘Many Many Happy returns of the day!’, I thought this is good, at least there is someone who will wake you up for giving the wishes.

However to my surprise he asked me a question soon after the wishes, ‘What is your birthday Resolution? Is it the going to be like, you will grow your hair?’ Lol!

Well I do accept that the hair loss for me is so natural, may be as my friend Sriram says, ’we are ahead in the evolution process. Earlier our ancestors had hair all over their body and later they became like us. Likewise, we are leading this century and years to come there will be people around us who are all bald headed!’ –What an idea right??

Life seems to be wonderful in its own way. I did have a lot of burns last year and I trust it was all required for me to get better. It might take time to heal the burns and I am sure time will heal everything.

Getting better is never ending process and we will always have something new to learn, something new to experience..

And coincidences do happen in my life for which I feel very surprised. I feel thankful to each and everyone around me for some reason which I am unable to find through my logic.

Things I trusted made me feel deceived.
I went through a very painful experience of melting down all my intuitions.
I feel I should be a nomad (Muthu mentioned the same word and that too just now!!)
No matter where it is, I should learn to be happy
I feel thankful to the external world !
I thank you, all of you, who are around me, who surrounds me and who supports me!
What a lovely life!
And what a lovely journey it is to live this life!!

I wish myself a very happy Birthday..If there is something called 'Birthday!'

PS: I felt it is worth mentioning the full names of the people referred here : Prasad is Prasad Babu, Sriram is Sriram Chandran R , Muthu is Muthuramalingam Shanmugavel pandian (Well a long name !!),

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